Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Grabby Hands

For all intents and purposes, I am frustrated.

I have taken the stand-back position and been under people for most of my time in STAC. I'm not trying to be a brat or 'grab for power' but I feel ready and am gunning for a chance. While I have for the most part enjoyed working with the people I have, I'm starting to get frustrated quickly when they can't figure something out and I see an easy solution. I don't want to hurt people's feelings, but sometimes it feels like I'm beating my head on a wall.

Also, I want to write. Straight out. I want to be able to sit and write and feel productive and I haven't felt that in a while. I wrote an eight page script for Creative Writing and we're about to start a scriptwriting unit, but I want to be able to show my work. I didn't put up anything last year, and I'm angry at myself for that and want to get back into it. I feel comfortable again. I want to show myself again.

I am a writer. I wanted to be treated as such. That's not asking a lot, I reckon.