Even If It Kills Me

I had never understood how people could feel like a song was describing their life until today.

While many of the juniors right now are struggling, I am probably in the best emotional and mental state of my life. Things that should be mentioned: 1, I was an unhappy child, and 2, the fact that I am in this state terrifies me; I don't want it to stop but this is also unfamiliar territory.

Anyways, today I was listening to a song and it hit me that the lyrics were in the same state of mind that I am in.

This is the chorus:
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I wanna try
To get better and overcome each moment
In my own way

And later:
For the first time in a long time I can say
That I wanna try
I feel helpless for the most part
But Im learning to open my eyes

The song is about someone who has been in a rut for a while. At first they tried to keep up, but then they let it slip and have been unhappy ever since. Now, the speaker is trying to get their life together, even though their not sure if it'll work. But the point is, as the song is named, they will try "Even if it Kills Me". It's by Motion City Soundtrack.