Day One! Let's sit and talk and have feelings.

So, I started writing a monologue today. And I've realized a few little quirks I have.
I can't go on for paragraphs upon eternities without little stage directions breaking it up. It looks so big and scary all put together that I have to split it up.
Also, I've gotten a bit of passive agressive angst in here, which I wasn't expecting.
This girl, she's upset for some reason that I'm still throwing ideas around for and she goes into this 'rant' (I don't read it as bratty in nature, but it could be perceived that way) about how she doesn't know if people feel things anymore (the italics are completely justified, thankyouverymuch.)
I feel like I throw this idea around in my head so much that I'm almost desensitized to it and I just need to get it all out.
I don't know.
Maybe I just need to get this out before I can put something proper out. Maybe I'll use it. Most likely, it'll go through quite a bit of editing anyways. Any ideas? I feel like I didn't bounce enough off of my community today and that I would have benefitted from it.
I need to clear my head. I can't get stuck on myself. Someone kick me in the shins actually don't that would be painful and I would react by reciprocating. Violence is only ever sometimes almost maybe the answer during a full moon.